Loss of a loved one

I'm sure I'm not the only person who has wondered if there is a proper way to grieve the loss of a loved one. For me it's been a year since I lost the last member of my family, my brother. I still miss hearing his deep gruff voice saying, 'Yo sis' and I will for the rest of my life. Some may ask... is that healthy ~ I don't know but it's my reality. Instead of trying to figure out how to 'move on' (as some may say) I am trying to figure out the best way for me to go through life without my little brother physically in it with me.

I am trying to embrace the reality of my loss and understand that it's okay to let the tears flow when I feel them building up behind my eyes, for they are tears of love. And yes, I do have moments when those tears come flooding out and I'm not even sure why but they're rollin' down my cheek. I don't make any apologies for my tears, I just try to catch them and let folks know it's just love for my brother. I'm also trying to focus more on the time we had together versus the time we won't have. I'm not going to lie, it's not easy yet I find myself smiling when I do re-play a memory ~ sometimes there are happy memory tears and that's all right.

I know my brother is at peace and one day I'll be there too but until then I'll hold you tight in my memories and heart ~ I'll see you in my dreams 💖

                                            Rest in Peace little 'bro'

                                                  Peace & Love 'sis'